My Miracle

Through out my life’s journey I have come to realize that my miracle came in two forms; the illnesses that overtook my being as well as the healing that I received from Reconncective Healing. It was through the depths of pain and dispair that my mind, body, and spirit were guided to ask the right questions and seek out alternative ways of thinking and healing. From this process of spiritual growth and healing I am at a place in life that I never thought to be possible and for that I am eternally grateful.

In order for you to grasp the essence of the miracle that has taken place in my life I have to give you a little bit of the history of the chaos that had become my life. The year of 2007, I was working full time as a counselor and administrative assistant for a treatment center for Eating Disorders as well as going to school full time at California Sate Channel Islands University finishing my BA in Psychology. I was 26 years old when the symptoms of my physical ailments started to emerge. It all started with slight digestive problems; indigestion, acid reflux, and minor constipation. I did not pay any attention to it and just continued living my life at a very fast pace with never ending demands.

 After about six months my symptoms started to progress and I started to develop more problems. My indigestion, acid reflux, and constipation, that was mild before was now severe. Any time I ate a morsel of food I immediately experienced cramping, stabbing pains, and severe nausea. My acid reflux was so bad that I would burp morning, noon, and night and get mouthfuls of either pure bile or undigested food. My constipation had exhilarated to the point that I was unable to have a bowel movement for an entire month. Even with the assistance of all different kinds of laxatives, nothing brought me any relief but the agony of temporary diarrhea that resulted in constipation immediately after. I was still pushing my body into the ground by over working with school and work as well as maintaining my own home.

In order to function and get through my daily responsibilities I would consume at least 30 Tums, ½ a bottle of Maalox, and laxatives each day. I was absolutely miserable and started to feel as if I was dying inside.  This is when I decided to go to the Doctor. to figure out what was going on with my body. At that point my Doctor had told me that I was under way too much stress and that my body’s digestive system was now shutting down. I also had become severely hypoglycemic and my body was no longer capable of regulating my blood sugar levels. The Doctor said that I had developed Gastritis through out my stomach and that I needed to find a way to lighten my stress load as well as change my diet. I did not see how reducing my stress load was possible considering I played a major role in this treatment center and was so close to graduating with my BA degree (only 8 classes away). So, I started exercising more and changed my diet to a “Gastritis friendly diet”. Still, I had absolutely no relief and continued to get worse and worse. I woke up and went to bed every single day feeling like I had a serious case of the flu.

After a year of these unrelenting physical ailments I started going to specialist after specialist to try and figure out what was wrong with my body.  This of course was filled with me being the lab rat for a long list of Doctors as well as the unpleasant experience of being probed and poked at. I was put on many different forms of medications that ultimately created more physical problems.

Through out the next year I was referred to many highly respected Gastrointestinal Doctors. My symptoms continued to get worse and I was in more physical pain.  At this point, I had been diagnosed with Gastritis, Acid Reflux Disease, Hypoglycemia, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Bacteria Overgrowth, and Lactose intolerance. Doctor's told me that I needed to adjust my diet again and look into some form of pain management, i.e. pain pills. It was also suggested that I see a psychiatrist because I seemed to be suffering from depression as well. How a professional in the medical community could not recognize that the reason I would cry when expressing what I was experiencing with my body was due to the physical torment I was in every second of my life was baffling and frustrating. But I was desperate, so I listened and like the good patient I was, I acted accordingly. I started going to therapy regularly and added in anti-depressants to my daily regimen of medications. 

My physical ailments continued to progress and I began to fail in my classes at school. The constant distraction of pain and nausea made it extremely difficult to concentrate or have motivation for any thing. At work I would lock myself in my office and cry because of the physical pain and agony that I was constantly in. Needless to say, nothing got better and I continued to get worse. The only difference was that I was drugged, medicated, and very knowledgeable about all of the different diagnoses I had been given.  Awesome.

Eventually my primary care physician pulled me out of work and I went on disability. I was ok with this because at this point because all I wanted to do was sleep and rest and not have to deal with any one or any thing. Once again, I was referred to another specialist at a very well known Gastrointestinal Medical Center. I was very excited and hopeful that I would finally get some answers and solutions to my conditions. Again, I was put through the gamut of exams, procedures, and tests that were exhausting, uncomfortable and some times painful.  Through out this process I was also diagnosed with Gastroparesis, which is paralysis of the stomach. Gastroparesis is a very rare condition which the causes are still unknown and treatment for it is extremely limited.

The Doctors told me I had two options: take Reglan; a very dangerous drug that would only relieve symptoms for up to 3 months and adjust my life style and find a way to live with this condition because this was my new reality. After doing thorough research on the drug Reglan I found out that it had been black listed for the other disorders and diseases that it causes, so I made the decision not to take it.

Unwilling to accept this new form of living, I decided to explore other options which led me to alternative forms of healing and Chinese medicine. I started doing Acupuncture, Cupping,and taking Chinese Herbs regularly. I also engulfed myself in many different spiritual practices to align my mind, body, and spirit to heal my body of all dis-ease. Unfortunately, there was no improvement.

My next step was Integrative Medicine. Which led to even more diet restrictions and taking 30 supplements per day. I continued with this regimine for the next six to seven months but I still had no improvements.My case was very much like an onion; the more we peeled back the layers the more problems were revealed. All though this was scary for me, I was ok with it because I just wanted to get to the bottom of it so I could find a way through it and get back to work and helping others.

My list of diagnoses continued to grow and in addition to the ones I already mentioned, I was now facing; severe Anemia (30 points below the low range), Adrenal Gland Dysfunction, Leaky Gut Syndrome, Auto Immune Disease (digestive), Hormonal Imbalance PCOS, continuous Iron toxicity, Circadian Rhythm Dysfunction, and many allergies and intolerance's including: all dairy products (even eggs) soy, fruit, gluten, sugar, nuts (all kinds) and every additive or preservative under the sun. If I were to eat any of these ingredients it would throw my digestive tract into chaos.

I continued to live every day with the endless agony and torture of waking up sick, in pain and going to bed even sicker and in ever more pain. I was literally incapable of living a normal life because I was now at the point where I was not able to consume any food that took any effort to digest and was not capable of eating any solid food for days at a time. I would go 3 days of only being able to consume a hemp protein shake. There would be times that I couldn’t even do that so I would be limited to rice milk and home made chicken broth. When I was able to eat I would only be able to consume very small portions and it would only be maybe once or twice a day, any thing more than this and my entire Digestive system would shut down and my stomach would become so distended that I looked as if I was 6 months pregnant and it would hurt to move as well as breathe.

I kept loosing more and more weight and could hardly maintain 100 lbs. I would drop down to 96lbs and force myself to suffer through the pain and nausea of eating in order to keep some weight on me. Many times I would cry and cry and wish my life would just end because what I was dealing with was by no means living. I tried extremely hard to focus on the positive and be thankful for all of the amazing things I did have in my life but I often felt as though I was trapped in my own personal hell with absolutely no escape. It was my body that was my torture chamber and you can’t exactly take a vacation from your physical being.

By the time I was 28 years old I lived my life through my body. I used to make a joke of it because it was like caring for an infant, literally. It took so much preparation just to leave the house to make sure I had all of the proper beverages, foods, and supplements. When I physically had the energy I would spend my time in deep meditation, yoga, exercise, reading every book on healing possible and preparing my own meals from scratch. But still my symptoms remained out of control and unmanageable. I never knew what I’d be doing from minute to minute, because my symptoms would switch drastically and some thing so small could totally destroy my digestive tract for an entire day and possibly multiple days at a time. I was suffering through extreme chronic diarrhea and constipation, not the most pleasant detail to give but that was my reality for quite some time.  To give you an idea of what I mean by chronic, lets just say I was in the bathroom every single day at least 2 times per hour and usually woke up through out the night having to go. Basically when my symptoms were diarrhea, any thing I put in my body would come right out of me. It was difficult to get through a meal (given the opportunity that I could eat) with out having to go to the bathroom during it.  As for the constipation, that’s pretty self explanatory, nothing would come out, for days and some times weeks at a time.  This was not a fun existence.

Due to all of these physical problems I had, my energy level was next to none; what energy I did have I had to use it to exercise in order to get things moving within my digestive tract since it wasn’t doing it on it’s own.  Some thing as simple as going to the bank and getting gas would completely exhaust me and I would have to come home and lie down and rest.

As you can imagine all of this has tad taken a huge toll on my mental and emotional well being. As more and more time went by I continued to go through major bouts of depression. All though I experienced many low points through out these years, I have always had this feeling inside me that one day I would find a way to get through this and then be able to turn things around for myself and help others who are going through the same or similar things. This was the only thing that kept me going and kept me holding on. 

The week before my Reconnective Healing® seminar, I was extremely sick. My digestive system had completely shut down once again and I was only able to consume liquids for four days.  I was not in a good place, physically, mentally, or emotionally. I was literally crying to my mom two nights before the seminar about how I couldn’t live this way any more and I didn’t understand why I was experiencing this.  I was ready to give up. The light at the end of the tunnel was not very bright. I knew that I was going to the Reconnective Healing® seminar but I can’t say that I was very positive about it. I was excited to learn but I had no idea how I was physically going to make it through the drive it took to get to LA, as well as sit through a seminar.  I had literally lost hope due to my past experiences and refused to get my hopes up again, only to be let down and still stuck with the agony and frustration of my daily existence.  But I put my fears aside and followed through with my commitment to attending the seminar and this is when my life began to change drastically.

I was so intrigued by the examples of the miraculous healings that took place after Recconnective Healing had been done that I immediately scheduled an appointment for my self the next day. After the first session of Reconnective Healing I was able to eat solid food through out the day as well as have normal healthy bowel movements with only mild pain and discomfort. Each day after, I continued to feel healthier and my symptoms were less and less. I was amazed, finally I had found relief. Since then I have not had to take any nausea pills or supplements and I truly feel amazing! I can now eat regularly and be free of pain. My energy level is the highest it has ever been and I have gained 15lbs and have maintained it.  My mental clarity is the best it has been in a LONG time! I am now back in school finishing my BA degree in Psychology and building my Reconnective Healing® practice.  Health, happiness and well being have been restored back to my life and I live every day in gratitude for the miraculous healing I received. I give 100% credit to Reconnective Healing® because I tried every thing else under the sun to heal my body and nothing else worked.

This is my story, my miracle. Please share it with as many people as possible because I know it will help others understand the true power of Reconnective Healing® and the magical ways it can transform your life on every level. The reason I feel so passionate about Reconnective Healing®  is because I am walking proof that it works. It gave me back my life after a long time of agony and suffering. My mission is to help others on their journey as much as I can and assist in their healing process so they can live their life to the fullest.

Blessings, Love and Light,

Amber McCullough